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[30 Oct 2009|03:07pm] |
People who I thought were good people and good friends and truly cared about me are showing me they're not and they don't.
And I hope they never read this because I'm better off without you but I'm too stupid or too scared to alienate you.
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[23 Oct 2009|08:55am] |
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...and the worst part is this city is fucking empty.
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[19 Oct 2009|01:54pm] |
all i do are things that withdraw me from reality.
fuck all of you.
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[29 Sep 2009|02:51am] |
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sometimes i don't need a friend. i don't need somebody who's gonna automatically take my side, but somebody who's gonna look at my situation unbiased and give me a reality check.
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[22 Sep 2009|01:16am] |
thank goodness for good vegan restaurants and video games and bicycles and the OC.
and thank goodness for distant friends who care cuz my close ones seem to be lacking.
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[19 Sep 2009|07:37pm] |
most of me just wants to take this situation I'm in and evolve from it, become a better, stronger person.
then there's the sentimental part of me that just wants things to go back to the way they were. but at this point they never can, and they never will.
and it's real hard when i have nobody here.
the person I'm closest to is the one it regards. all my friends are too busy with their own shit and too content without me to notice I'm not there. my roommate is like a ghost, he's gone by the time i wake up and asleep by the time i get home.
I'm deserted.
i have nobody.
only voices on the other end of a phone. and letters on the other end of a text that hardly seem there when i need them.
why the fuck am i so damn depressing? what the hell happened to me?
i don't like who i am anymore. i don't like who i am anymore.
somebody fucking hold me.
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[03 Sep 2009|01:46pm] |
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when the fuck does this get easier?
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[28 Aug 2009|05:52pm] |
Listen to me, kid. If she doesn't reach over and lift
up that button so that you can get in, that means she's
a selfish broad and all you're seeing is the tip of the
iceberg. You dump her and you dump her fast.
i don't know why i care so much
when i shouldn't care at all
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[18 Aug 2009|01:18am] |
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I've never felt more lonely than i do right now.
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[17 Aug 2009|03:58am] |
i secretly don't want to live in chicago anymore.
i need to start being creative or i just might die.
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[16 Aug 2009|01:43pm] |
it's time to nip this in the bud.
shit.
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[14 Aug 2009|03:32am] |
it's not fair to the rest of the world that we're both single.
nobody has any idea who I'm really talking about except the person I'm talking about.
i miss california.
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[07 Aug 2009|10:37pm] |
afraid i'll never leave
afraid i'll never know what's good for me
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[06 Aug 2009|02:54am] |
i have a lot on my mind that i want to scream.
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[03 Aug 2009|06:12am] |
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why the fuck do i insist upon staying up late and making myself feel worse about shit?
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[24 Jul 2009|01:22am] |
I have the strength of a hundred men.
I have the mind of a goddamn genius.
I have a heart that never leaves me cold,
but it would break if I were left alone.
You are my friends, you are my family.
You're more than this. You are my everything.
I can't help but cry. I can't help but wonder.
Is this ship going down? Is it taking us under?
These waves of frustration breaking the mast,
shredding the sails and drowning us fast.
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[21 Jul 2009|12:47pm] |
It's like I ordered a root beer float but they brought some watered down diet coke with a few creamers in it.
Sure I'll drink it because I'm thirsty, but I really wanted the root beer float and I'm too scared they'll spit in my refill to say anything.
haha, that's exactly what it's like.
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[16 Jul 2009|10:42pm] |
just when i had myself convinced it wasn't too good to be true.
just when i had myself convinced i deserved it.
just when i had myself comfortable and content.
i fucking hate this.
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[03 Jun 2009|11:01pm] |
when i drink my latte i just want it to immediately be at that point where it's the perfect temperature and i can sip and sip and sip it, but it never is and i burn my tongue and it hurts all day and i can't taste anything.
this is yet another metaphor of my life.
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[13 May 2009|12:54pm] |
i choose to ignore the difference between the things i want and the things i need.
i should start prioritizing the needs.
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